Everything you could ever need

I was listening to a sermon from my bishop from 2008 (Before I even joined my church) and it was entitled Relationship. That sermon was AMAZING. All of the sermons are amazing but you know what I mean. He was talking about the importance of having a relationship with God because when all others fail, God will always be there.

It kind of brought me back to the way I used to be. I was a very emotionally driven teenager up until like twenty years old. I laugh now at the thought of it but I was a drama queen. I was one of those teenagers that was moody, impatient and all over the place lol But thank God for growth and maturity because I'm no longer moved by emotions.One thing that my bishop said was you have to die to your feelings. In 1 Corinthians 15 Paul said, "I die daily." Dying daily means to die to your fleshly tendencies and desires. Emotions will lead you all over the place.

What I loved most about that sermon was understanding the importance of leaning on God. Bishop was talking about seeking counsel. "I need help. I need advice. I need direction." And no one being able to provide it. I've been there and I can say that that provoked so much growth for me, physically and spiritually. At that moment when family didn't have the answers, friends didn't have the answers, church members, etc., when I thought no one had the answer, God had the answer! And that's exactly where He wanted me, leaning and depending on Him.

People are human so that means they will let you down at some point or another. And if your emotions rule over you, then you will be overwhelmed and easily offended. You ever hear someone say, "I'm offended?" Well offense is a CHOICE. Being angry, upset or resentful are all emotions that can easily peak their heads if others don't rise to expectations or if they say things or do things that let you down. But those very situations are being controlled by God to help you grow up. Not to be mean but you have to suck it up and keep moving. Who told you life was easy? It's not but it's possible.

When you've found yourself running around with what seems like no direction, that is an indicator that God is calling you to Him. I think God has a way of silencing those who you rely on more than Him. People aren't suppose to have all the answers. That's why a solid relationship with God is important. It puts you in a position to seek counsel from the truest Counselor.

I've grown to love and respect my Bishop more and more every time I hear him. He's tough. He gives a Word on a weekly basis that will cut you but force you to change. I've compared him to a drill sergeant lol He's all about business and that's why I'm so grateful to be at my church. He's training us for battle. We can't be weak and emotionally driven if we're going to fight against darkness. God has given him a mighty mighty vision. We're suppose to reach the world right? You have to be strong and courageous but you also have to depend on God more than anyone.

If I became offended every time someone said something I didn't like, didn't come through, didn't rise to expectations, etc., I would be a very emotionally unstable person lol But because of my faith and trust in the One who has promised to always be there and because of those moments when it seemed like no one could come though, I have peace even in those moments that used to offend me.

If I could write down all the times that my emotions tried to get in the way of God's voice and almost caused me to move out of His Will, I would. But it's way too many to name. Emotions can cause you to say things and make decisions that you regret. Be led by the Spirit and not by the flesh. Your flesh will get it wrong every time. 

God is the one who has created each of us. No one can tell us who we are, what's placed inside of us, and the way He desires us to use those things except God. It's so important, especially during the journey of learning who you are, to fully rely on Him. I'll be honest and say that it's incredibly HARD but you'll never grow up by desiring counsel from a person more than counsel from God. That is a difficult lesson but a vital one to learn.

I'm grateful for the journey and where God has me. I feel that the hand of God is truly on my church. I can feel it. There is so much going on and I feel very blessed that God would allow me to be a part of it. I'm filled with much gratitude. And to be honest, I almost missed out on it. But praise God for being led by the spirit and not the flesh. Things don't always make sense but the season of seclusion/solitude is when you grow. When no one seems to come through, it's a blessing in disguise! Those are the moments where God is pulling you closer.

Take possession of your own mind. Your thoughts, emotions, feelings, and flesh all want to dominate you. But faith comes from a relationship with God. When you know that all things will work for your good, (Romans 8:28) you won't be shaken even when people, situations, and misfortunes try to move you. Focus on Jesus! There's nothing like having a real relationship with Him. God is the only one guaranteed to give you all that you will ever need.

Sex: It's Only The Cherry On Top

Why are we such a sex-crazed generation?

Why does it seem impossible for folks to wait for true love? A love created by love {God}...

He's the only one who knows what's best for us, as we continue to get impatient with our singleness and lack of a mate to call our own.

Don't we realize that it takes more than sex to keep a mate? It takes more than good looks, pretty eyes, dimples, and a built figure to keep someone. All of that stuff should just be considered as the "cherry on top."

What about genuine companionship and intimacy? <--Don't get it twisted. Intimacy doesn't have to involve sex.


What about good conversation, complete with healthy debates?

What about a mate who would push you to be better? Someone to help unravel your purpose and set you on the course for your destiny?

What about someone who would push you to have a closer relationship with God? Someone that would be readily available for biblical discussion and other spiritual convo?

How about someone you could have some legit fun with? **And until marriage, your definition of fun shouldn't include getting freaky in any and every place imaginable.**


I've just seen too many people awaken love before its time. Too many folks have altered their own lives with the consequences of engaging in sex before marriage. Waiting and saving yourself until marriage is God's plan, and it's the best one out there. You will save yourself a lot of heartache, grief, and disappointment. Not everyone has your best interests at heart. Some are only around for that  1  t h i n g. And as soon as you let them get a taste, they're on to the next one...while you're left with broken emotions.

I'm not bashing anyone who's had or is engaging in premarital sex. It's your life and your choices. And as Dr. Phil would say, "How's that workin' for you?"

Perhaps the fabulous Lauryn Hill can better explain this issue...

Another Growing Point

This day has been a whirlwind of emotions for me....confusion, frustration, annoyed, hopeful, dreamy, motivated, inspired, sad, lonely, etc. I've just felt a lot of stuff today, and I think I tried just about everything to combat the bad stuff out of my life.

Awhile ago (somewhere posted in this blog), I finally "grew" up as I learned to speak to the storms in my life. So, I think I had that down. Still, I felt empty as a person. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore, read the Bible, prayed to God (What is going on? Take this pain away, please! Show me what you want me to do, and I'll do it! What do I need to be doing today?), thanked God in the midst of my feelings, and still....emptiness.

You ever have those moments where you feel so alone, and you wonder if God is even hearing you? Well, today was one of those moments. I've felt this way several times, and I've even heard positive sayings such as: When God is silent, He's really working. However, I was not trying to hear that. I just wanted my emptiness filled ASAP, my joy back, and the ability to go on with my day not feeling so glum.

My emotions and feelings were all jumbling around, birthing from many different things. I was sad that I didn't have many friends (I know less is more, but...). I was upset that I failed once again in attempting to walk in my purpose yet. And I guess I entertained the hidden fear that my college years would be worthless because I might not land my dream job after graduation; I may still be serving up chicken in my hometown. (Still a job, but we go to college to be more, right?) Then, a little little little part of my being was thinking that a significant other would make me feel SOOO much better! But I know better than that; my self-discovery issues would still be there, and one day I would just be caught in a mid-life crisis or something....putting another human through the ordeal of trying to figure ME out. ~And as I write that, I realize that it's better for me to be single right now after all. Know thyself.~

And then another breaking down moment occurred.

Ever since 2006, I feel that I'm supposed to have written this fictional book based on real-life circumstances in my life. I can't believe it's been 5 years! Man, I'm one disobedient kid...smh! lol...I literally think about writing this story and/or others every. single. day. People and their problems inspire me. Especially those in relationships. I have movies playing in my head all the time, with dialogue and fictional (based on real people) characters. I see how stupid TV/movies are today, and I'm inspired to create that real stuff again.

However, a dream is just a dream unless put INTO ACTION. Faith without works is dead.


So, I haven't written stories forreal forreal IN YEARS! I've done a little brainstorming, started a paragraph or two, but nothing serious since I was younger. Writing stories was my hobby. I did it almost as much as I played Barbies or with my stuffed animals. And I think that was one of the factors that led to my writing. Playing with toys required imagination, and writing required you to merely extract stories from an endless pool of creativity and imagination.

Tonight, I actually mustered enough courage to actually go for it. A part of me is a little scared to begin, for whatever reason. I'm just gonna do it already. It eats me up inside everyday anyway. This could be my breakthrough, I thought. So, I get my notebook and pen out. I write a few phony little sentences out my head, and it sounds so stupid to me. So I quit. Just like that. I got frustrated, and I wondered if God had taken that gift away from me since I procrastinated too long to obey Him. I mean, 5 years is a long time to live under a wing of disobedience. Then, I felt Him speaking to me. I've included a portion of what I heard. I think some of what was said can apply to YOU and whatever situation you find yourself in today:

Crawl----> Walk----> Run

Research the craft.

You were only 7.

Order before you establish something.

Your room and bathroom are chaotic.

Habits, chaotic. Life, chaotic.

You're looking for someone to complete you, but only I can do that. Just trust me. I will bring it to pass. There's no formula that will better your chances. I speak, you listen. Order. Organization. My glory. I AM. Learn a little more. Don't give up so quickly. It's only been 2 minutes. Breathe. Listen. Remember. I will do great things through you if you let me. Don't put me in a box. You think you have it figured out, but that's your problem. You need to trust and believe. These may not be the best days, but the days will be glorious one day. Patience. Faith.

I've felt the need to give to someone, but I didn't know what to give. Tonight, I give my words. And hopefully, that will spark something inside you that was on the brink of dying. Be encouraged.

Distractions Just Love Me

--distraction #65, you so fine you blow my mind--


Maybe it's just me, but distractions just love me.

Every time I think that I've finally regained focus on the important thing of that moment, here comes Mr. Distraction. And of course, he's always fineeeee and charming. Or his swag was just on point, as the young folks would say lol

Here's my story with distractions of the male persuasion.

They come, and then they *POOF* disappear. Literally. I have SO many instances of guys that came in my life for a brief moment, and then quietly exited stage left. In the early instances of this, it would upset me. I didn't understand. Was it something I said? Was it something I did? Why doesn't he want to talk to me anymore?

I mean, it was real triflin. A simple "I don't wish to speak to you anymore," would've done the trick. But no, these guys that I had been talking to via text and on the phone just straight up vanished. Then, there's the distractions that I was kinda feelin' a bit. That maybe if given the chance, they could have been more. But they disappeared as well.

I'm beginning to notice a pattern. I might not be the reason for their sudden escape, but I think God has been protecting me from a broken heart. I think He is aware that these carbon copies of THE ONE are only distractions to keep me from fulfilling my purpose and reaching my divine destiny.

Distractions tend to come when we are doing the right thing. When we are staying in our lane and pushing vision (s), that's when the wolf dressed in sheep's clothing tries to lure us off the path. I'm getting much better at recognizing a distraction before my emotions get involved.