In this past week alone, God has reminded me that I need to do whatever I'm supposed to do for HIM alone! Not for any sort of recognition or glory on my part, because who am I anyway? ....right! You don't know and neither do I! lol
We all have a purpose or perhaps many purposes we are to complete within our lifetime. We have at least ONE crazy dream we hope to accomplish before we leave this Earth. I have several, but I'm only going to mention one right now. I believe I'm supposed to be a writer for SOMETHING in this world. Whether for a magazine, news station, book(s), or even a movie. My crazy childhood dream was to be an author, have all these books published everywhere, and be famous! I was a painfully shy kid, so this was like the ultimate dream for me. Getting paid for doing something that I LOVE and finally being this outgoing popular chick from my fame.
However, I'm reminded everyday that I literally can't do anything without the man upstairs! So whether or not I became famous or not, I just want to give Him back all that He's given me! I don't want to face Him in Heaven and hear about all the things I shoulda coulda did. Or that regardless of the things I did for Him, He doesn't even know me because of my own self-glory. Smh.
22 Then Jesus went through the towns and villages, teaching the people. He was on his way to Jerusalem. 23 Someone asked him, "Lord, are only a few people going to be saved?"
He said to them, 24 "Try very hard to enter through the narrow door. I tell you, many will try to enter and will not be able to. 25 The owner of the house will get up and close the door. Then you will stand outside knocking and begging. You will say, 'Sir, open the door for us.'
"But he will answer, 'I don't know you. And I don't know where you come from.'
26 "Then you will say, 'We ate and drank with you. You taught in our streets.'
27 "But he will reply, 'I don't know you. And I don't know where you come from. Get away from me, all you who do evil!'
28 "You will sob and grind your teeth when you see those who are in God's kingdom. You will see Abraham, Isaac and Jacob and all the prophets there. But you yourselves will be thrown out. 29 People will come from east and west and north and south. They will take their places at the feast in God's kingdom. 30 Then the last will be first. And the first will be last."---New International Reader's Version
So as of now, any sort of desire for fame on my part is now SHOT. What I do, I do for Him. From my character to my demeanor, morals, and integrity. What's done in the dark surely comes to the light, whether good or bad. God sees it all. He sees how you act when the boss isn't around and how you put some pep in your step when the boss man's looking over your shoulder. He sees your heart when you only sow (give) to others for your own selfish gain..."I know God's gonna bless me with this, if I do that." Smh. He knows WHY you really do the things you do. He knows the people that shout the hardest on Sunday mornings, but totally ignore Him throughout the week. He knows when something's genuine, so don't fake.
I'm just realizing more and more how unimportant I really am. Don't get it confused; my confidence is fine. =) The Lord is just SO much more important than me or you. If you get out the way and come to Him sincerely, you will learn who He is. Learning daily that my main goal at the end of the day is to have pleased an audience of one...
